Note to Self: from The Die(r), Adventures with Friday

Plot point 3: a morality play

L: I have this recurring fantasy about killing someone.
L: I have this recurring image of striking someone’s head, just above the left ear, with the broad side of a clever.
L: This fantasy is predicated upon various situations in which my action would be acceptable.
L: Not the broad side but the back.
L: In this image the skull has collapsed flat and sits atop a stupidly hulking body.
L: In this image I am watching myself relax, my shoulders relax.
L: Any blunt object with a sharply defined edge really.
L: This fantasy includes protecting or avenging someone.
L: In this image there is a moment of release in which any notion of personality abdicates.
L: In this fantasy I imagine moving the body out of the house as if it were one of my own limbs engorged.
L: As if by my actions this fantasy body had accreted to my physical body.
L: As if this was a method of making honesty.